Toosday night suggestive texting

Hmm... another night of insomnia approaching. Had a cool chat to Goleftatthefork (Thanks mate), and am in bed on the laptop now.

P texted to ask if he can go ahead and book Cape Town for the 15th... Duh! Of course he can haha... And its just going to be the two of us, so thats cool. I am a little apprehensive though. He is one of my oldest friends, and is married with two kids. I know his wife doesn't know I will be with him. We had a fallout a few years ago. (Another Post). And I know we are going to paint the town red, and I know we are going to get naked, and I know all he wants to do is a bit of mutual masturbation, and I know I will. So do I feel guilty? I think the problem is that I won't feel guilty. I love being with him though, not sexually, or relationship stuff, just love being with him. In high school, we fucked around a lot, spoke about our sexuality issues. Perhaps that's what binds us together. He calls me a survivor, I call him a success story.

But I think he is lonely, and just needs a change. He has everything; a thriving business, wife, kids, boat, quadbikes, apartment in Cape Town, big house in Durban close to the beach. But I get the feeling when I am with him that he is insecure in so many other ways. I used to go to his house (when his wife was still talking to me lol) and while we were sitting around the table with friends, he would send me all these suggestive texts lol....

It's a quagmire filled with moral issues. But I will go, and be his friend, thats the least I can do. I have a feeling he might want to ask me to join him in his business. It's right up my alley and it would be good right now for me, but perhaps I am reading it wrong. I know one thing though, I won't move away from my kids. I did that once for four months and still regret it.

At the very least it will be an adventure, and selfishly I need one right now.

No rewind button Sethy, no rewind button.